The Pain in Knowing Your Worth

Worth.

This seemingly innocuous word is thrown around a lot. I’m coming more and more to realise my inherent worth. That understanding that we are worthy, worthy of the life that is most aligned, worthy of beautiful experiences, worthy of everything, simply by virtue of being.

What I hadn’t expected was the incredible pain that has come along with this realisation of worth. When you know so deeply what you are worthy of, you can no longer allow less. Your boundaries become naturally reinforced. You have little choice but to allow some of those closest to you to go on their way.

In myself, when I recognise somewhere in my life that I am not living in a way that reflects my worthiness, I can almost feel a sense of dread rise alongside the awareness. The knowing that loss is a natural side-experience of growth. We can not move more fully into being ourselves without shedding that which no longer serves us. Sometimes this comes with the loss of things you hold dear.

However, if you choose to ignore the rising awareness, the bodily held truth that it’s time to let go, you abandon yourself. You loose trust with yourself. A far greater loss, in the long term.

As in all of life, the genuine euphoria that accompanies an understanding of worth sits in polarity with the inevitable growing pains.

Treat yourself kindly as you grow, allow yourself the space and time to grieve what is lost.